I want to apologize to all my readers for dropping off the face of the earth. It looks like the last time I posted was October 2, 2011 – almost 4 months ago – and I really left everyone hanging. The truth is, I had big plans – a possible new website about vag – and sadly, I haven’t done anything about them. It’s still in the back of my mind and I truly appreciate those of you that commented or sent me notes, expressing interest in being a part of that website. I do intend to be in touch, when I finally approach that project.
In the meantime, there have been some seriously huge developments. But it has taken me 4 months to feel the urge to write anything here. However, yesterday was Sunday – and like I do every Sunday morning, I read the latest PostSecret installment on my iPhone while lying in bed. And what did I see as the first secret?
Now, this is not my secret. But it still rang true. (and thank you to the brave person who sent this secret in. If, by some chance, you are reading this blog, I hope it’s ok that I re-posted your postcard).
But it reminded me that I’ve made huge strides in the last few months, and maybe there are women out there who could use a little encouragement. Maybe it’s time I shared my big secret……and so…..
I did it.
In fact, I’ve done it 7 times! 7 times!!!!
Truthfully, it (sex) has not been great. It’s been awkward and uncomfortable, and most of the time, it’s been painful. And I think that’s why I hesitated against posting anything. Because I didn’t actually believe that this was something I’d be able to do permanently. Like, maybe the first time was just a really lucky fluke. Or that it would only get worse, and not better.
But it’s been seven times. Over the course of 4 months. And each time, it’s gotten just a little bit better. And I am actually starting to believe that this might be something I will have the privilege of doing again and again, AND that one day, it might actually feel normal and good.
So, I wanted to share that huge milestone with you. It IS possible. It can be done.